Oh my goodness! Is been so long since i last updated my blog, i do feel bad about it. Dragging and dragging and dragging, don’t think i would want to go through all the grandmother’s stories one by one.

Anyway, 2011 has been a good year after all. The first half was literally dead and boring but the second half of it just moved too fast for me to actually have time to sit down and review things one by one. I’m not complaining either since i would rather be busy than sitting in front of my lappie all day thinking which drama to watch.

One of the most interesting that happened in 2011 would definitely be the Program Assessment Centre that i attended. It definitely opened up my eyes and well, i should refrain myself from all the criticism. The people there were nice and friendly but the program was bad i thought. Bad to the extent that i thought it was an insult on the intelligence of the participants. Come on, Malaysians are definitely more well trained so please give tougher training, not all these peanuts.

Moving on to my new chapter in KL. This is interesting to speak of

Well, wherever you go, you do get good company as well as bad company but i’m very appreciate that i get to meet some really nice friends. At least i won’t be spending my big day all alone due to some really lame reasons.

I enjoyed my hostel life so far but i have yet to know if i actually love my clp studies. Afterall, it wasn’t what i wanted and aiming for. I never like the fact that i would actually practice law one day, the feeling was even greater after my graduate studies. Well, i’ll see how it goes. ^_^

December 2011 was good because i get to fly out of the country for the very first time ever since i’m back to Malaysia. I really really missed the time where i can fly here and there with no worries. Travelling is fun especially with such good company.

Revisited Paris

Cambridge University Botanic GardenRevisited Singapore

No matter what, the greatest achievement is still finishing my studies in Nottingham. The route to this spot was never easy even from the very beginning but i have no regrets. In times of difficulties, i do question myself if i had made a right decision by staying behind all alone. I do feel tired and sad at times but after knowing some stories of others, i am once again sure i will never regret the route i choose. I really enjoy my Nottingham days more and i love the fact that i have a bunch of lovely yet crazy friends of different culture and nationality.  I love the fact that i got more stories to tell others about what’s really happening outside of Malaysia. I really really have to thank all the people who made my life back in Nottingham so fun.

Late yet worth while achievement

2011 ended well unlike 2010 and i do hope that 2012 will be another exciting year. I do hope that everything that has already started will end well and things that has yet to start will starts well. I also want to experience more things and feel more wonders of God’s creation. ^_^

Goodbye 2011 and welcome 2012.

I keep telling myself that i have to update my blog after my result is officially out. However, the marks which indicated that i’m now officially a master holder didn’t actually bring me to this post. Just as what i have previously thought so, it might be because it is taking too long that the mood swing between real joy and my ‘mild emo-ness’ is really great this time around. Anyway, i made it through this time! I took a longer route, a more difficult one but is definitely worth it. In times of difficulties, everything shows. Who are the true friends, who is the one that will be by your side no matter what. I really thank God for bringing me through.

So, that’s not the little ‘thinggie’ that bring me to this post. I was so delighted to write this post is because finally, yes, i mean FINALLY i get to see some glimpse of light to my dream! Thank God for this. I really don’t know how far this small paragraph will go, but to even get to see this kind of thought been published in the newspaper makes me happy. Extremely happy! So here’s what the news is all about:

Lessons from K-Pop and ‘manga’

KUALA LUMPUR: Branding a nation might need Malaysians to sing and dance. William Chin, who commented on the 1Malaysia rountable yesterday, said Malaysia should mimic the pop cultures from the Far East. He cited Korean pop, particularly known as K-Pop, which had created waves around the world with its music and fashion.

He felt that Malaysia could make its name internationally by exporting its entertainment industry. He said the Japanese Illustrated comics known as ‘manga’ had become part of its identity and had changed the comics from being simply a ‘kiddie’ item to one appreciated by the adults. Responses continued to pour in on the thrid day of the 1Malaysia rountable titled “Brand Malaysia”.

Another contributor, Azzahari Hassan, said taglines like 1Malaysia and “Malaysia Truly Asia” help enhance its brand. He felt that social media should do more to promote these taglines. “The world should think of us as the ‘melting pot’ of Asia”.

(NST, Thursday, June 30, 2011, p6)

I really couldn’t believe that this small piece of news alone has what i wanted as a goal as well as my dream in it. For those who read back my blog will realised that i’m really a k-pop fans. From a silly girl who goes crazy over certain idols until a lady who actually look in depth and appreciate the k-culture, i’m really thankful to the friend who actually brought me into all these kpop craze. I really learned a lot from this nation and it is all this kpop craze that makes me realised what i really wanted to do in my life, what i wanted as a dream and what i aim as a goal.

So let’s talk about my goal first, since it would be easier for me to achieve it. I am still amazed that my goal was also mentioned in that piece of news. For friends who’s hearing this for the very first time, please refrain yourself from calling me crazy! I never laugh at your goal in life, so i make sure i received the same responds too! Since i’m now an official master holder, my aim is definitely to move a ladder higher, to get my phd. Talking about phd, after all the hardwork and this i mean in terms of mentally and physically i put in completing my master studies, i am very sure law is not my ultimate goal. I want to be in the diplomacy field. I really love it more than i do in law though i seems to do better in law. I have been having this topic of research in mind for quite some time although i admit, i did nothing to make it true and i seriously in a loss of what to do at the moment. The topic that i really interested in researching is to rebrand Malaysia. Yes, i mean rebrand as i thought we really need to do so. I am not going to go into details in this since it was supposed to be my research field if things were to go according to plan, but what i would like to write it down in this post is, it is really a time for us Malaysian to brand ourselves properly as a true melting pot of Asia. A melting pot which has both the tradition and the modern ingredient in. We can’t be forever stuck to the old ‘thinggie’ and abandon the fact that the world is changing in a very fast pace. We need to brand ourselves as a country which can preserve the traditional cultures and at the same time a country that can adapt it well in the new community. Oh, i’m getting all excited to about it. I wished i could had this learned in a lesson or even better in a short course. I really wished there’s someone that can fill me up with more knowledge on this aspect.

So, what about my dream. M-Pop!!! Yes, that’s what i call it. An entertainment industry that makes up of Malaysian, which would be catered to the public, locally and also internationally. This i mean, a true entertainment industry which makes up of all Malaysian, all races, all cultures! You can call me racist, but i do not want to deny the fact that i’ve been raise up in a race conscious environment. The race thing has brought quite a bit of problems to me personally but still i never forget one thing, this one thing i learned when i was just a small kid: I am from Malaysia. My Country, Malaysia is a multi-racial country. I am always proud that i’ve been born to be a multi-racial community. So despite the political parties manupulating the policies, what i want to do for my lovely country will still be for our people as a whole and this includes the Malays, the Chinese, the Indians and the many many more natives in the country. I am really glad to know that my dream will not forever remain as a dream but a dream that can be achieved in real life. By seeing the current mindset of our people, i have my doubts that is going to be easy but still i wished that in the future i can actually be of help in realising this dream of mine or perhaps by that time, it will not just be a dream of mine, but a dream of our nation.

However, since i’m going to start another new chapter of my life real soon, i will make sure this time around, i will do even better so that i can be hopeful in achieving my goal and realising my dream in the future. I really appreciate the person who wrote and published this news to brighten up my gloomy thursday morning and giving me hope.

^_^

好奇怪哦,最近老是喜欢用中文来写贴子.

不管啦,有把想写的东西发泄出来就可以啦.

虽然说我不会因为你的烦恼而不眠,

可是毕竟碰着了我的伤口,

感觉还是想写些东西鼓励自己一路来那么勇敢面对.

我呢,真的很感谢主.

感谢他赐给我一个很好的家庭,

感谢他赐给我一对很谅解的父母,

感谢他赐给我一位好有本事的哥哥,

感谢他让我不必经历太多的诱惑和挫折.

虽然到现在我还是不明白神想怎样雇用我,

可是我相信我一定能够成为一位值得我父母感到骄傲的女儿!

 

只要一直都抱着像初心一样的诚恳心态

一切都会变好的!

最近一直都在论坛上混,而且也看了很多文章,很多感触,所以决定在自己已经麻木前来写一写我的感想. 不喜欢的人可以无视我写的东西.

今天要写的是有关这篇文章: 二十岁的女孩应该有的思想. 我还蛮赞同作者的想法.

1. 拥有品位

 “品味是一个人去观察事物时的态度，同样的东西，不同的人眼光下会出现着不同的版本，物品本身的价值与品位的高低是没有关系的，女孩要用自己的目光去欣赏一件东西，用高级的品味去挑选东西。”

其实对于这一点我真的只能说我真的真的真的很努力了. 我的父母只是小城市出生, 用的穿的都很剩. 所以在这个一分钱,一分货的社会里,我们确实比其他人来地朴素点. 可是现实永远都是那么残酷的,不是名牌包包,始终都是会被一些人歧视. 我的父母也不是非常懂地如何教我选择衣服. 我身材有不好,很多时候都需要漂亮的衣服才能让我变地好看点. 真的为此烦了好久哦. 可是我真的很努力在我的家庭能负担起的开销内把自己打扮地大方得体了. 至于要做到把服装穿出自己的品位和味道,那倒还需要很多经验吧. 可是我已经不是小妹妹了,所以也不想打扮地太过可爱,比较喜欢自己被人称赞是个很有气质的女生!

2. 养成看书的习惯

这一点我有做到啦. 哈哈哈……. 就是因为读太多所以才会想到要写一些感想的吗. 最近读了很多文章阅读网的文章真的很开心,因为都是很有启发性的. 可能是在论坛混了一些时候,终是觉得外面的人太现实啦,我不喜欢.

3. 要试着发现生活里的美

这呢,我是上了大学后学到的. 我们的生活永远都不会刻刻都如我们所愿,所以把事情看的开一点,失望少一点,心情会开心一点,人吗自然就会看到或领悟到更多东西. 把事情看的太复杂,我们的生活也会跟着复杂的!

4. 跟有思想的优秀人交朋友

“女孩到了二十几岁后，就要开始有目的性的去选择朋友，社会中的人脉非常的重要，而你选择加入的朋友圈也会对你的人生有着很大的影响，如果你的朋友都是一些积极向上乐观的人，你也会被他们感染的，如果你的朋友是一个悲观主义者，整天只知道报怨生活，却不会脚踏实地的工作，时间久了，你同样会被感染的。”

如果说我什么都没有,可是我有的是一群很优秀的朋友! 我真的很庆幸自己的朋友都是健康家庭成长的孩子. 都是一群不会乱惹事的朋友. 都是一群有成熟思想的年轻人,因为和他们做朋友,我的成活也很平静. 虽然我不知道论坛上的人都是什么环境下成长的,所以也不想评论太多,只能说他们的烦恼也为免多了点吧! 简单点生活多好,为什么就是想不通呢?? 有的呢,对我说就有点太过了,思想太现实了,现实的我不能接受.

5. 远离泡沫偶像剧

哈哈哈….有啦! 最近真的少看很多了. 有看也是选择一些较有教育性的来看.

6. 学会忍耐与宽容

不学着忍耐与宽容能在这个那么现实的社会混吗??

7. 培养健康的心态，重视自己的身体

最近一年来确实有比较爱吃健康一点的食物了,比较注重自己的健康了.

8. 让美貌成为你的资本

这个吗…..哈哈哈,减肥应该是我唯一能做的吧. 太肥了啦,男生都被吓跑了. 虽然知道男人都爱身材好的女生可是如果论脸蛋的话我还蛮自信的. 哈哈哈.

9. 离开了任何一个男人，你都会活得很好

男人. 不知道啦. 读了太多论坛上人家的烦恼,我还是想不通. 可能是因为我身边的朋友都没有太多感情上的烦恼所以我不明白为什么人要把事情搞地好像很复杂! 如果问我吗,我只期望一份简简单单的爱情,一份结果会是美满婚姻的爱情. 至于那些要尝试过不一样性拌侣后才能知道哪个比较好的想法是我这个保守派怎样都不能接受的. 不带上责任感的感情我不能接受.

10. 有着理财的动机，学习投资经营

我还没开始赚钱所以不知道,可是我已经很努力的学如何在自己的能力下花费. 开始做工后应该会好一点的吧!

Ah……….what i busy long weekend i had! I am not supposed to complain about it since i spend most of my time sitting in front of my laptop, now that i have other commitments to draw me away from this screen, i should be happy about it. No matter how busy i am, i told myself i have to write something about this Royal Wedding. Shit or rubbish doesn’t matter, i have to start the hobby of writing everything i had in mind so to keep my brain working all the time without going rusty during this long break.

I am glad that i am not working or else i might not have the chance to sit in front of the tv for hours just to watch the wedding of the century live! Well, though i was upset over the fact that i can’t be part of the crowd. The whole wedding ceremony was fantastic! Maybe because i was home most of the time, i don’t feel the atmosphere here in Malaysia that people were crazy about this whole event. But come on people, when will we get the chance to have a Royal Wedding airred live in our tv that often? Not to mention the fact that Prince William is the second in throne after his father, Prince Charles. Of course, Kate Middleton doesn’t just get to snatch away the Prince for no reason! Personally i am a fan of Kate because she always present herself as a young, confident lady. She always dressed up so elegantly. I really like it this way. Presentable, being beautiful and hot without having to reveal much!

Back to the Royal Wedding, i would say i really love the fashion. The typical british fashion. Yes, conservative for many, for definitely presentable. I like it sweet and simple. Nothing too funky, but i have yet to appreciate the beauty of wearing hats. Hats, hoodies or caps just don’t seems to fit in well my head, definitely not my round face. Victoria Bechkam’s dress and hat looked so simple but she always has the ability to carry it out well and yes, gorgeous! The Queen’s yellow outfit is nice, Pippa Middleton’s simple white dress is the best i thought. Kate’s wedding gown once again showed that she is a simple and down to earth person. On a closer look, she has the figure, she doesn’t really need something too sophisticated to make her look as gorgeous as she was hours ago. She is able to shout out to the people that, ‘Hey, i’m the princess’ in such a simple yet presentable gown. I wonder how many woman can present it as well as the new princess. As for the men, oh no, Prince William, please do something to your hair. Not that i will love you less but i can recomment you Yunan Hair Care if you want. (Hahahaha ) And also at the first glance, i though you have some Chinese influence. Red Royal Air Force Uniform! Red is good!! Hahaha……

Other than being all hooohaaa about the fact that it is the wedding of the century, as a fairy tales lover, i really like the fact that the prince is getting married to his love for real. As i finished graduate school, i had learned that the outside world wasn’t so promising at all. Not just the employment market, in terms of relationship too. I came to realise that there’s too many sad cases happening around in this generation of ours. I have yet to have my fair share when it comes to relationship but i still can’t understand why people likes to make things complicated. Perhaps just like what some have said, human being is often being blind by love. What i don’t understand is why people in our generation can’t be as committed as the older generation when it comes to love. Call me oldie, but i still thought the idea of becoming friend first, then when there’s this ‘feel’ between the two, get together, understand more, appreciate each others present, accept each other as a human being and be together happily ever after. It seems that modern generation adults weren’t really in to this kind of relationship. There is no commitment in a lot of the relationship out there. That is partly why when things don’t go according to your flow, you give up. Well, i know often it is easier said than done. I guess i shall have my fair share soon. Yes, sometimes i do sincerely hope that it will be soon since i’m no longer any younger. Is time to experience more.

So from the information we have from the media, Prince William and Kate Middleton met each other during their university days. Very typical story line. Friends, fall in love, get together, have their fun days as a uni couple. After grduating, here comes the problem. So what now? Period of confusion, break up and finally realised that, ‘we were meant together as man and wife, let’s be close ok’. Finally after all these years, here comes the day where they march in the church to receive the blessing. How many people actually managed to have this kind of simple yet so real relationship? Many maybe, but definitely not me. @_@ However, i am still glad that at least the people around me doesn’t really have that kind of complicated relationship problems like what i always read in LYN. So i sincerely wished this couple can be happily ever after regardless the fact that the spotlight will forever haunt them down. I want to be sure that fairy tale like relationship still happens, not just because this involve a real prince. I really hope that our society or community can be less complicated when it comes to relationship issue. I want to see everyone to be happy with their love ones.

So when will my prince appear?? I guess is better for me to divert my attention to what should i do to bring my weight down to healthy level than to think about the seems never gonna happen event!

So now comes the waiting time again. Hope that Royal Mail will not delay my order this time around and have my first day cover deliver to me fast. Guess i’m not going to order the poster since i weren’t really fancy over Prince William red outfit. Better to spend the 10pound on a piece of dress since is sales time again!

What a wonderful day i had spending it watching over the Royal Wedding!

^_^

Yeah, so now, what should i do?? I guess after all i’m still a spoilt kid who refused to grow up. I really have no intention of finding something to do yet and this i mean a decent job. All these while, all i know was by studying hard, graduate from university and your future will be promised. This sounds good but i came to realise that the world we live in weren’t that promising at all. At this point, i do admit that i have more than once doubted the step of entering graduate school. Looking at how most of my friends have already started working, have their own social circle with an exciting life (at least this is how it looks like in Facebook, huh), i felt that i was left behind, very far behind. I was never ahead of others nor on par with them, now i do feel terrible.

People will say, you have to start somewhere without being too choosy, but the questions are where, when, what and etc. I never knew i could be so undecided when it comes to such an important thing. So what should i do now? Or at least i should start thinking, where should i go? Which area i want to be in? Law or Diplomacy? Work or further study?

Since young, i was never the top candidate in terms on holding responsibilities. I was never given a post where commitment was needed. In college, what more to say, i come i go, sometimes people cares, most of the time they just choose to ignore it. In graduate school, i decided that i do not want to be attached to anything and just enjoy most probably my last year of student life. I have no one in heart that i need to take consideration of when doing things, and my family are all still healthy enough to do what they want without having to trouble me. So when it comes to long term commitment, rather than feeling the pressure, i felt really scared about it.

I think there’s probably only two options for me. Work as a freelance by taking up projects or cases time to time, but have to bear with all the naggings from my parents for not wanting to settle down with a decent job. The other option is just find a decent job and better still if they force me to sign a long term contract so that i have no choice but to stick with it for the time being. Option one suits me but where to find such job? And how to do it to the extent that i have the mean to support myself so to get rid of more naggings. Option two is most probably the easier way at the moment but to bring my heart to this point will never be easy unless i get to find something i like to do. But only God knows how long i will stay still until i change my mind again!

Well, maybe i think too much but i still can’t imagine if i can ever dive into a sector and face the consequences of complaining over the same damn file or employer that i have to face everyday and that would be good if it happens only months or at least weeks after i join.

Guess my career path will never be as easy as others!

^_^

Woah……..couldn’t believe that i haven’t been writting anything in my blog!! Well, staying at home usually means doing nothing so can’t help~~~lol~~

So today is another Monday blueeeeeeeees for me. Nothing special since there’s no someone special yet. The most saddening part is i still have a conclusion to write!!! Argghhhh…….. should have written it ages ago. Now i feel so lazy to finish it. All of a sudden, i feel like the meaning of finishing it no longer exist. Anyway, i’ll still do it for the sake of ‘just in case’ or rather for the thousands of pound spent!

So if you are a lukeworm here in this blog which i highly doubted there’s any, something to think about it: Does true love worth your waiting?

For me, it really doesn’t matter. I am fine with myself. I love my life but that is if i’m not living in this small town!!! Arggghhhh….. i think i need to stay in a busy city to keep me occupied! I really couldn’t stand the slow lifestyle here in Kluang. I wish i could fly so i could fly to a place where i truly belongs! And as for the special one, oh, forget it, you better don’t appear before i get things settle down in a place where i feel i belongs to!

Ok, time for some writting!! =_=

I’m back home~~~ Most probably not much to write until i get myself settle down.

Is 2011! The Year of Rabbit. So here comes my year and that means i’m going to be 24 very soon. Time really flies.

Think about it, there seems to be a lot of things from 2010 that i’ve yet to complete. After all the anger and tears, it wasn’t that bad too. I’ll just treat it as a new experience. I’ve learned a lot from 2010. I’ve experience failure, isolation and a lot more things that a girl who has been pampered since young had never experience before. So i presume from now on, everything will be alright or even better as i couldn’t think of myself being any worse.

There is this saying that: There’s no such thing as FAILURE, it is just a PROCESS – a PROCESS to SUCCESS! I should be on my way to success then. I might take longer time than other people but being in the process itself thought me to be more grateful about what i have. I’ve learn to slow down my pace and appreciate the goodness and beauty of the surrounding.

I do get hurt and i do get tired at times, but i still move on. I do not like the idea of staying at one place forever. I want to move to somewhere higher. So i have to continue my journey despite having most of my friends choosing the path of remaining on the same spot. They do have their own happiness but i’m definitely not blessed in this way.

Last year i did not note down a concrete resolution for myself that’s why at the end of the year, i actually found myself hanging around without having a sense of direction. So this year, i have to make myself write down what i want to achieve.

Resolution of the year 2011:

1. Finish my master degree! 2 years of kindergarden + 6 years of primary school + 5 years of secondary school + 1 year of college + 4 years of university life is more than enough. Is time to tie a knot to this chapter and move on to a brand new level.

2. Slim down. No joke this time. The weight that i lose had been visiting me lately. I have to do something to bring down my weight, at least to a healthy point. I can be chubby but i do not want to be overweight and 5 years down the route i will worrying about all the sickness. On the side note, is time for me to be a pretty young lady. Not a 18years old college girl anymore!

3. Get myself a job. Preferably my dream job. Of all the things i learned in my years, the urge of working to serve people become stronger everyday. I want to do a job where i can put a smile on someone’s face and do something that make the people dream and be hopeful. I really DO.

I think that’s all for 2011. One step at a time. But of course, if i am able to save up my own money for the next boxing day, it would be great! And if i can meet with this someone special, it would be a bonus then. No expectation on these, so no disappointment if nothing happens. ^_^

Lastly, HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone~~

After visiting Nottingham and Manchester, we headed north to Scotland!

Edinburgh Castle

Edinburgh Castle

Cathedral

The trip to Edinburgh was good but i’m just too lazy to upload all the pictures here. What i love most in this trip was definitely the guesthouse we lived in. No complain. We paid as little as 79pound for a family room, we got all the facilities we need and it was just too cosy. However, the good impression i got from Scotland had been totally destroyed by one person! That’s gonna be the very first time i found out that national rail can be that annoying. I always thought they had the best service but i was wrong. Not going to comment anymore.

Next day, we headed south back to England again. The train was supposed to go straight from Edinburgh to Birmingham but due to flood cause by the melting of the snow, we were redirected to Newcastle to catch a train to Birmingham. Yea, i said NEWCASTLE. Not a nice way to be back to somewhere i’m familiar with. Anyway, we were only an hour late than our schedule, but too bad, even if we were a few more hours late, there’s still nothing much to see in Birmingham. The Bull Ring is meant for shoppers, definitely not my family. Booooo…..

Random Church

Self-entertaining

Then, the next day, we headed West to Wales~~

Cardiff Castle

Lunch

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Cardiff Bay

Cardiff Bay

Wales seems to be a much quieter place in comparison to England and Scotland. Not a bad place to visit.

After our stay in Cardiff, we went to Bath and London.